Some New Year's Ramblings

Am I the only one relieved that the holidays are finally over? For a time of year that seems to swoop in unexpectedly, the last 6 weeks sure have dragged on. That’s not to say they were bad, by any means. Just long and exhausting. Now that we’re reveling in the freshness of a brand new year, I feel like I can breathe again, like I can put effort into something other than trying to navigate the sticky holidays.

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Listening to: ayokay and Quinn xcii

Loving: My new snake plant (which is also called a mother-in-laws tongue) we got at Lowe’s today. His name is Maurice. And his neighbor, the white rocking chair from Society 62.

Looking forward to: San Francisco, Seattle, Denver, and Asheville - all this month, whew. The Procedure launch party. Turning 30 this year.

Thinking about: What the future holds - I’m excited but trying to be mindful and stay in the moment. What I want to write about. How happy I am with the way our home is coming together. How to launch my freelance course. What my first “motherhood project” will be.

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All I really want to do in the world is to encourage other people to follow their hearts, even when it’s hard, even when they’re uncertain. I’ve definitely been in a place of fear and lack and scarcity, where the idea of following my heart felt...foolish. So I understand how frustrating and hopeless that place can feel but I also understand what is on the other side of letting go of people’s (and society’s) expectations of you.

It’s amazing. The more you do what you love, the happier you are, the better your life gets. Duh, right? But I’m not talking like you’ll just have a better attitude. I mean that life in all of its various forms will get better and better in real, tangible ways. You’ll start drawing in more of what you want out of life because what you are putting into life matches that on an energetic level.

What is it you want more of? Money? Love? Friends? You can have that. All of it. There is literally no limit to what you can attract into your life. Many, many wise people and experts on the Law of Attraction have taught this before me. And I am just so stoked on it. I’ve personally had wild experiences manifesting all kinds of wonderful things - and I didn’t do vision boards or anything. I just lived in a way that felt good - as Gala Darling says, I stayed in the vortex (aka the place where all the magic happens). The more you stay in the vortex, the better life gets. And all you have to do to get in the vortex is do what makes you feel good.

What makes you feel good? It can be so many things, ideally high vibe things (i.e. getting drunk to alleviate feelings of pain) like meditation, tapping, dancing, singing, listening to music, moving your body in any way, having an orgasm!, and so many more things!

When you’re in the groove of life, feeling good, anything is possible. There are things out there waiting for you that are so good you couldn’t have even imagined them from where you’re sitting right now.

It’s challenging to be positive all the time and I fail constantly at it. But the most important thing is to just redirect your thoughts and move on - no need to beat yourself up over it. But you know what else is challenging? Not living the life I want and feeling miserable. This doesn’t have to be hard but it does take effort. That’s worth every ounce of energy, I promise.

I’m so excited to be moving forward with that through my writing. I truly feel that 2018 was the long pause I needed to take to calibrate my spirit. Life had just been so crazy for so long and I was constantly going and going with no fulfillment and I knew I had to stop if I wanted to enjoy this one precious life I’ve been given. And oh my has it been magical. It has been hard at times and definitely pushed me out of my comfort zone but it also showed me a depth to myself that I had forgotten existed without all the personal development books and podcasts and trending types of meditation. I’ve found a cadence with myself that has brought me so much peace and clarity. I wrote but didn’t share a lot because I needed to keep things close to my chest so I could heal. But now I feel so ready to start sharing my writing with the world again. So, if anyone is reading this - thanks for being here. See ya again soon,

♥ CV